Tonight, I actually watched two movies. I took a break from my usual routine with my wife and girls out of town to go out. I watched two movies that made one think about their purpose here on earth. What are we supposed to do with our time. For the record, I watched “Lucy” and “God’s Not Dead”. While, I am obviously a believer in the Lord above and Christ, this is not my attempt to say one movie was better than the other. It is not my attempt to even say that both movies were not interesting. There were good points to both.
I would even say that “God’s Not Dead” does not touch on what the first stirred in my from a belief standpoint. The truth of the matter is that after watching the first, I felt that I was pulled into the world of trying to figure out what it would look like for us to live up to our full potential. This is not to say what would life would look like if we used 100% of our brain, but about recognizing what our highest calling is. As I watched the first movie, I saw what one person would do in order to serve themselves and serve the world at large. It was based on knowledge and understanding how things work. There were some great things touched on about our interconnectedness with each other and the world around us. But ultimately terrible things were done in the name of protecting this gift of knowledge and ultimately power.
For me though, I struggled with this as I am a firm believer that to reach our true potential we must learn to live and love unconditionally. This is just my opinion and I am always willing to be proven wrong. But in my life, the greatest piece of growth that I have had comes through giving of myself. I have had people tell me that I need to take care of myself and not everyone else, but the truth of the matter is that by serving, I recharge. I do struggle, I do find it hard to give some days. I get angry, I want to quit, I want to run from the people that I think might take advantage of me. But I also recognize that the people that push my buttons, probably need someone to not have conditions on helping them.
I would say that if we truly want to advance to our highest self, then we must always be willing to give. We must be willing to let go of all the things that we hold so tightly and give those away. That is the way that we pass on the power of who we are to others. This world is crazy right now; wars all over and economic scares. But we get over all of that through finding ways to love and sometimes that means loving someone who seems unlovable. For me that is what it means to be Christ-like. For me personally, to withhold love is to judge. To withhold love is to fail to acknowledge that we are fallen and that I am undeserving of love.
What a lot of things boil down to for me, is ultimately what do I value? What has the higher price in my opinion? You see, to me…love has the higher value. And I say that simply because knowledge is rather easily attainable and cannot truly be lost. Other people can acquire the same knowledge and we can always be pushed to gain more knowledge. Love on the other hand, and more importantly unconditional love, is something that cannot be attained through our desire to have it. We cannot be loved by someone because we want it…they must give it. Someone has to give a piece of themselves to you and they trust you with that. We do it as parents, spouses, brothers and sisters (although that can feel forced at times). We do it in our friendships and we do it as the sons and daughters of our parents as we mature. We choose to love them and give of ourselves for them and instead of dealing out pain for the acquisition of knowledge, when we love we take on most of the pain for the sake of those we love.
We are willing to accept someone else’s burden and take ownership of it when we love them. Love seems to be the ultimate calling for us as it is to accept that we will hurt and be okay with it. It is to accept the truth that when we love someone without conditions, then we are living out this thing we call faith. Genuine unconditional love, is the message of the cross. It is an amazing message that we often miss in our daily lives. And other times, we say that we know that is the message of the cross with our mouths, but we do not believe it.
I have learned in my life that it is not about proving how much one knows. I have learned that there are people smarter than me with more knowledge than me. I used to get into arguments to prove my faith was strong. I would debate and study and acquired vast amounts of knowledge about my faith and other faiths. I had this arsenal of knowledge and no matter how many arguments or debates I entered, I was doing little good or furthering the kingdom in any way.
But what happens when one chooses love?